Healing doesn’t mean the damage never existed. It means the damage no longer controls your life. Healing can start by letting go of regrets, forgiving those that have hurt, and learning to forgive myself. With time and courage telling my story without pain in my heart the ache in my soul and without the tears. This is how I can measure that healing process has begun. I hope to find someone who can find the beauty in my scars. I hope someone can walk through the front door every time and smile at me and who will never leave me guess as to how they feel about me. I hope to find someone who will never hesitate to love me for me for who I am and who I will become. Who doesn’t just give me piece of their time but its entirety. I hope to find someone who is my biggest supporter who is not just seeking attention but gives it in return. Fall in love with my best friend. Someone I can talk to about anything and know they’ll hold judgment. Someone who knows the darkest parts of me and loves me anyway, that knows all my flaws and loves me not in spite of them but because of them. Not someone that I can’t live without, but someone that I don’t want to live without. Someone that I want to experience all of life’s ups and downs with. Someone who will hold their hand through the worst times of my life. When they see me at my worst, when I’m broken, and they don’t run away but help me put the pieces back together. Now that is real love.