fear rules my life. I am always looking behind me. My head tells me one thing but my insticts tell me another. I feel my heart race and my breath quicken. No one understands that when I leaveI need to feel secure. I need to feel calm. No one understands this. I can't really expect anyone to, no one else has ever felt this way. Im going to be all alone here for the next few days and I think I can feel myself puke at the thought of it. So i'm trying very hard not to. trying to distract myself. but the back of my mind the stirrings of that fact remain, i'll be alone....maybe they'll know... maybe thats when I'll get a knock on my door or when I'm out....nooo....
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