stolen

Stolen voice.
They reached inside and stole what was mine.
They never gave me the one thing that was freely mine, the heavenly spirit..
Some monsters come at night. Some in the day. Some monsters are created.
Leaving behind demons.
Missed opportunities.
Stolen time.
Never to happen again.

I found the love I've been looking for, I'll be still until the day she comes calling me home, until then my heart will have to wait. Im glad my heart wont have to break anymore.  My love lives in a place called far away.  sigh.
Ive exposed my flaws, Im not perfect, held together with bandages, sewed back together, glued, duct taped. I have my scars. Ive been knocked down so many times I've lost count, but Ive stood back up. Im a work in progress.
The only thing that is hard is being alone when I want to be with my love. When I want to hold her, kiss her, even just looking over and seeing her. Waking up next to her in this world makes it seem so much better. 

wait

still waiting…..for this life…..for you…..scared if i wait to long but i’m scared to dropped so i’ll wait

show you i can carry you to the finish line.

new

Keeping up

Trying to keep up w technology!!  shouldve known there was an app for that. Amazing.

does it ever get easier?

life has been difficult lately. this is the house that gauze built. for christmas Connie and I are buying each other gauze and other surgical supplies. I have surgery scheduled for five days before christmas and then con has surgery scheduled for two days after the new year. I am hoping that my back surgery goes well. They have good a progonsis. I'm crossing my fingers. emma is still sick. we are on the way back to the doc on friday.