I am alone. I am scared. I have never been so scared in my life before. I am far from anything I know. People here are duplicitous. I cant trust anyone. I have my daughter to look out for. I have no one. This is as bad as it gets. I am on my knees. I can't do this. There is no way possible. I don't see any options. There is no end of the tunnel. There is no light. What i thought I had I do not. What i thought I could do I can't. Every door I thought there was there is not. Every thing I thought I had is gone. Everything I thought I could count on left. My voice has left. I am sick.